I was silent the whole ride home even though my mother kept asking me what wrong since my makeup was ruined and I looked like crap.
"Yuma please bas ba6ni y3awerni wayid fa abi arid ilbait," I told her, even though I knew she didn't believe it. I hated keeping secrets from my mom but some things are meant to be secrets.
We got into the house and I took off my heels before sprinting to my room.
I couldn't look at myself in the mirror as I didn't want to see how bad I looked and I basically didn't want to see myself.
I slipped off the dress and undid my hair before wearing my comfiest pajamas and slipping into bed.
I didn't think I'd go to sleep anytime soon as my mind was too preoccupied with what had happened at the dinner party. I went on Whatsapp to check on Zaid's last seen but he'd taken it off a while ago so I could only see if he was online.
I had only a couple for hours to talk to Zaid. He was leaving at 3 PM precisely tomorrow, so it didn't give me a large window of time to talk to him. I doubted he wanted me to talk to him and even so I didn't know what we'd tell each other anyway; we never fought before and when we did, it was messy.
I couldn't believe that I told him to be with Lulu, nor did I believe he would actually tell me he would. I only said it just because I was frustrated at everything and I wanted him to give me up easily, and maybe he was doing the same. But underneath our play, we cared about each other...deeply.
He'd never know how I truly felt about him nor would I.
I hugged my pillow as I stayed online, just waited for a text from him until I gave up and decided to call it a night to try to go to sleep. I kept my phone right next to my head, and woke up plenty of times throughout the night from texts that were from anyone but Zaid.
My head began to hurt and my pillow was stained with tears, and that was when I knew that what we had was just temporary.
"Yuma please bas ba6ni y3awerni wayid fa abi arid ilbait," I told her, even though I knew she didn't believe it. I hated keeping secrets from my mom but some things are meant to be secrets.
We got into the house and I took off my heels before sprinting to my room.
I couldn't look at myself in the mirror as I didn't want to see how bad I looked and I basically didn't want to see myself.
I slipped off the dress and undid my hair before wearing my comfiest pajamas and slipping into bed.
I didn't think I'd go to sleep anytime soon as my mind was too preoccupied with what had happened at the dinner party. I went on Whatsapp to check on Zaid's last seen but he'd taken it off a while ago so I could only see if he was online.
I had only a couple for hours to talk to Zaid. He was leaving at 3 PM precisely tomorrow, so it didn't give me a large window of time to talk to him. I doubted he wanted me to talk to him and even so I didn't know what we'd tell each other anyway; we never fought before and when we did, it was messy.
I couldn't believe that I told him to be with Lulu, nor did I believe he would actually tell me he would. I only said it just because I was frustrated at everything and I wanted him to give me up easily, and maybe he was doing the same. But underneath our play, we cared about each other...deeply.
He'd never know how I truly felt about him nor would I.
I hugged my pillow as I stayed online, just waited for a text from him until I gave up and decided to call it a night to try to go to sleep. I kept my phone right next to my head, and woke up plenty of times throughout the night from texts that were from anyone but Zaid.
My head began to hurt and my pillow was stained with tears, and that was when I knew that what we had was just temporary.
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So sorry for the short post, inshallah tomorrow it'll be much longer:)
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So sorry for the short post, inshallah tomorrow it'll be much longer:)
PS. Don't forget to do the poll (available only on web version). I'd be really grateful, thank you so much!
Dedicated to Gee:*
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Short post , but guess what? As always grat'h 3 times������ thank you so so so much cashmere, you literally made my day�������� they both know ena they love each other bs 5ayfen ygoollon�� I wish niyah called, maybe her pride won't let her but when you love someone mafeh 7yya! Can't wait for tomorrow's post, to see zaid's point of view! I'm sure he got so many things to say, hopefully zaid and niyah will decide to sneak to lulu's house and kill her or I'll do ������
ReplyDeleteYou just can't imagine kaif you made my day, thank you again❤️❤️❤️ -Gee
Aww thank you Gee! Means a lot!!
DeleteYijjjjaneeeennnn the post bs 2 short bs it dosent matter❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
ReplyDeleteHaha thank you!
Deletewe want her with zaid please :( gbl la yerj3 plzzzzzzz
ReplyDeleteSiiighh...too late?...
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