It was 3 AM.
I couldn't stop twisting and turning.
Partly because of seeing Zaid in such an emotional state had me worried and I didn't want to fall asleep and not hear my phone ringing if he decided to call. And partly because I should've told Lulu and Sarah about Zaid calling me.
I didn't know what to do.
Should I text them now before it was too late?
I took out my phone and began to compose and explanation on my notepad but it all sounded so wrong no matter how well-worded I typed it.
Hey sorry I left earlier wallah, bas thing is Zaid gave me his number on graduation day and we never talked or texted until he called me today and wanted me to come over because his mom passed away.
No. Big no.
If they had any doubts they'd confront me but at the same time they kind of trusted me to say something. Still I should've told them earlier, but what good is this going to do to them now? They wouldn't have to know; no one had seen me and Zaid today.
Yet I felt so guilty and I knew that if they knew or if I told them right now there was not going to be anymore friendship; we were already walking on eggshells here. Let alone the small fight that had happened today.
Lulu said b the group earlier inna she was going to il3aza, which really caught me off guard.
Lulu: Guys btrou7oun il3aza bacher? Ana barou7 inshallah
Wasn't she like anti-boys or something?
Sarah: Madri I don't know his sister 3adil:$
Lulu: La ana a3arif ekhta oo banat khalta. Kanaw yamna belshalaih fa barou7 il3aza weya umi
Oh, I remembered. I hadn't been to Lulu's chalet though, but she did mention it like a really long time ago. Were they waiting for me to reply?
Me: I don't think so,
It was true, I didn't know his family other than himself. Or maybe I should go?
Lulu: Okay 3aayal bas ana. Wai mali khlg, inshallah ilwa'63 mu awkward
Was she serious? Or was she testing me?
Me: Lulu could you be more sensitive please?;p
Lulu: ? ;p
Me: Umhum tawha mtwafya
Lulu: i know?
Me: nevermind
Lulu: La shenu?
'3abiya wala ita'3aiba?
Me: la enna umhum tuwafat and you're complaining about il3aza
Lulu: I didn't complain?
Me: geltay malich khlg o you hope it's not awkward.
Lulu: it's the truth? like okay tuwafat allah yer7amha bas still:$
Lulu: like if that bothers you so much laish ma etrou7een?
Okay I should've ignored her comment the first time.
Me: ma3arifhum
Lulu: bas you knew Zaid too well
Test3abe6? I didn't reply.
Lulu: Sorry mu qa9di in a wrong way bas I meant inna you know him more than us.
Me: If you haven't forgiven me yet just say so
I didn't know why I typed that.
Lulu: La imbala I did bas all things aside ya3ni you did know him
Me: Madry I don't think I'm going, mn zman 3anna
It hurt writing that but I did what I had to do.
Lulu: Okay kaifich. And again sorry mu qa9di
Me: La it's fine
That was when I knew our friendship would never be the same.
My phone vibrated on my bed stand and I kew it was from Zaid. I think he knew I'd expect something from him; only I didn't know what. I opened the message, which wasn't a Whatsapp text but a regular one.
Omniyah,
I can't thank you enough for coming over, and I'm sorry I had to put you in an awkward position.
Just letting you know I've rescheduled my flight to tomorrow after the funeral for personal reasons.
I will not forget what you've done for me and I wish you the best of luck in everything.
Forever grateful,
Zaid.
***
Dedicated to Kibuki :*
I couldn't stop twisting and turning.
Partly because of seeing Zaid in such an emotional state had me worried and I didn't want to fall asleep and not hear my phone ringing if he decided to call. And partly because I should've told Lulu and Sarah about Zaid calling me.
I didn't know what to do.
Should I text them now before it was too late?
I took out my phone and began to compose and explanation on my notepad but it all sounded so wrong no matter how well-worded I typed it.
Hey sorry I left earlier wallah, bas thing is Zaid gave me his number on graduation day and we never talked or texted until he called me today and wanted me to come over because his mom passed away.
No. Big no.
If they had any doubts they'd confront me but at the same time they kind of trusted me to say something. Still I should've told them earlier, but what good is this going to do to them now? They wouldn't have to know; no one had seen me and Zaid today.
Yet I felt so guilty and I knew that if they knew or if I told them right now there was not going to be anymore friendship; we were already walking on eggshells here. Let alone the small fight that had happened today.
Lulu said b the group earlier inna she was going to il3aza, which really caught me off guard.
Lulu: Guys btrou7oun il3aza bacher? Ana barou7 inshallah
Wasn't she like anti-boys or something?
Sarah: Madri I don't know his sister 3adil:$
Lulu: La ana a3arif ekhta oo banat khalta. Kanaw yamna belshalaih fa barou7 il3aza weya umi
Oh, I remembered. I hadn't been to Lulu's chalet though, but she did mention it like a really long time ago. Were they waiting for me to reply?
Me: I don't think so,
It was true, I didn't know his family other than himself. Or maybe I should go?
Lulu: Okay 3aayal bas ana. Wai mali khlg, inshallah ilwa'63 mu awkward
Was she serious? Or was she testing me?
Me: Lulu could you be more sensitive please?;p
Lulu: ? ;p
Me: Umhum tawha mtwafya
Lulu: i know?
Me: nevermind
Lulu: La shenu?
'3abiya wala ita'3aiba?
Me: la enna umhum tuwafat and you're complaining about il3aza
Lulu: I didn't complain?
Me: geltay malich khlg o you hope it's not awkward.
Lulu: it's the truth? like okay tuwafat allah yer7amha bas still:$
Lulu: like if that bothers you so much laish ma etrou7een?
Okay I should've ignored her comment the first time.
Me: ma3arifhum
Lulu: bas you knew Zaid too well
Test3abe6? I didn't reply.
Lulu: Sorry mu qa9di in a wrong way bas I meant inna you know him more than us.
Me: If you haven't forgiven me yet just say so
I didn't know why I typed that.
Lulu: La imbala I did bas all things aside ya3ni you did know him
Me: Madry I don't think I'm going, mn zman 3anna
It hurt writing that but I did what I had to do.
Lulu: Okay kaifich. And again sorry mu qa9di
Me: La it's fine
That was when I knew our friendship would never be the same.
My phone vibrated on my bed stand and I kew it was from Zaid. I think he knew I'd expect something from him; only I didn't know what. I opened the message, which wasn't a Whatsapp text but a regular one.
Omniyah,
I can't thank you enough for coming over, and I'm sorry I had to put you in an awkward position.
Just letting you know I've rescheduled my flight to tomorrow after the funeral for personal reasons.
I will not forget what you've done for me and I wish you the best of luck in everything.
Forever grateful,
Zaid.
***
Dedicated to Kibuki :*
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