Oh my god.
We hadn't talked in three weeks and he called just when my friends were in my room? I would not tell them since I told them I didn't talk to him; which was true. We never texted or talked. Until now.
"Bas digeega china fee 6alabiya yaya," I told them as I left my room; I really hoped I sounded believable.
I picked it up.
"Alu?" I said softly as I walked away from the room.
"Omniyah?" I heard Zaid said. His voice was broken and I had a sunken feeling in my gut; something just wasn't right.
"Zaid, shfeek?" I told him. My heart was thumping in my rib cage. I really hoped it wasn't what I'd thought.
"Y-y9eer tyeen?" he said. He took a while to speak as he tried to sound fine, but we both knew he wasn't fooling anyone.; I wished his mother was fine...
"Ee yallah kani," I said without hesitation before he hung up. He sent me the address of his house.
How was I going and how I was going to get to his house without my friends was a wonder. I couldn't not go; I was so worried. He hadn't talked to me or texted me since graduation, three weeks ago, so him calling me now to say that he needed me meant he actually needed me to be there for him.
My heart was still pounding and I was beginning to feel light-headed. I really hoped he hadn't lost his mother, and I tried my best to walk back into my room with a neutral face.
"Guys so sorry bas lazim arou7 bait khalti al7een '6arouri, you're welcome to stay bl bait," I told them as I wore my flats.
"3asa ma shar?" Lulu said, worried.
"La maku bas barou7 bsir3a oo arid," I said as I left the room before they had a chance to ask another question. I was thankful my mom had left earlier so it seemed a bit believable.
I called the driver and quickly left the house for Shuwaikh.
I was panicking and my heart was beating so fast and texted Zaid that I just left Shamiya and will be at his place in five minutes.
I gave the driver the directions to the house and ran out of the car before he had a chance to make a full stop.
I stood outside the open gate and texted Zaid I was outside. I saw him open a side door and I quickly ran inside and caught my breath as Zaid opened the door.
His face was drained of color and he looked stunned, like he had no idea where he was or what was going on.
"Zaid, shfeek?" I asked him. I wanted to shake him to get him out of his trance.
"Umi tuwafat," he simply said. Oh God it was true. My heart skipped a beat.
I brought my hand to my quivering lips as tears streamed down my face. I didn't know his mother, but I couldn't imagine how he must be feeling.
He was still stunned and I was scared it might hit him hard.
"Zaid, shoufni," I commanded him. He lifted his eyes from the floor and onto me.
Then the most heartbreaking thing happened as he began to weep. He sat on the step of the stair and buried his face in his hands as his body trembled while he cried his heart out. I wanted to hug him so bad but I couldn't do anything but sit next to him.
I heard him sob and I couldn't say anything but cry with him.
"Id3i laha," I told him as I wiped my tears. God help him, he looked like he was about to break.
We sat in silence next to each other for a while, he cried while I tried to comfort him, but I knew nothing worked.
"Omniyah," he said as he lifted his head up from the floor. "Riday ilbait, mabeech ita2akhirain," he said as he wiped his tear-stained cheek with his sleeve. I couldn't look at how broken he was; it was too much.
I looked at my watch, it was almost 8 PM.
"Ma warai shay," I said. I hated to think what would happen to him if I'd left.
"Akhaf ummich it7ateech," he said. It killed me when he mentioned my mother so I nodded as I wiped away at my tears with my sleeve.
"Itha tabi ay shay dig 3alay, okay? Ay wagt, ra7 akoun mawjouda," I told him. He nodded as he looked at me.
"Mashkoura," he said.
"3a'6am allah ajirkum Zaid," I said.
"Ajirna oo ajrich," he replied.
I quickly got back to the car as I saw some family members walk into the main entrance of the house. I checked my phone, no missed calls or texts.
By the time I got home Lulu and Sarah were gone.
They texted that they were going to have dinner at Cafe Bazza in case I wanted to join them, only I didn't. It didn't feel right.
I changed into my pajamas, prayed, and snuck inside my bed as I kept my phone next to me in case Zaid needed me.
I checked Twitter and saw some retweets about Zaid's mother from a couple of old schoolmates. I bet Lulu and Sarah knew I was at Zaid's house, but I think they'd let this one slide only maybe not since I didn't tell them, I didn't know whether to trust them or not.
I honestly wasn't in the mood to care right now.
***
Dedicated to Shahad :*
We hadn't talked in three weeks and he called just when my friends were in my room? I would not tell them since I told them I didn't talk to him; which was true. We never texted or talked. Until now.
"Bas digeega china fee 6alabiya yaya," I told them as I left my room; I really hoped I sounded believable.
I picked it up.
"Alu?" I said softly as I walked away from the room.
"Omniyah?" I heard Zaid said. His voice was broken and I had a sunken feeling in my gut; something just wasn't right.
"Zaid, shfeek?" I told him. My heart was thumping in my rib cage. I really hoped it wasn't what I'd thought.
"Y-y9eer tyeen?" he said. He took a while to speak as he tried to sound fine, but we both knew he wasn't fooling anyone.; I wished his mother was fine...
"Ee yallah kani," I said without hesitation before he hung up. He sent me the address of his house.
How was I going and how I was going to get to his house without my friends was a wonder. I couldn't not go; I was so worried. He hadn't talked to me or texted me since graduation, three weeks ago, so him calling me now to say that he needed me meant he actually needed me to be there for him.
My heart was still pounding and I was beginning to feel light-headed. I really hoped he hadn't lost his mother, and I tried my best to walk back into my room with a neutral face.
"Guys so sorry bas lazim arou7 bait khalti al7een '6arouri, you're welcome to stay bl bait," I told them as I wore my flats.
"3asa ma shar?" Lulu said, worried.
"La maku bas barou7 bsir3a oo arid," I said as I left the room before they had a chance to ask another question. I was thankful my mom had left earlier so it seemed a bit believable.
I called the driver and quickly left the house for Shuwaikh.
I was panicking and my heart was beating so fast and texted Zaid that I just left Shamiya and will be at his place in five minutes.
I gave the driver the directions to the house and ran out of the car before he had a chance to make a full stop.
I stood outside the open gate and texted Zaid I was outside. I saw him open a side door and I quickly ran inside and caught my breath as Zaid opened the door.
His face was drained of color and he looked stunned, like he had no idea where he was or what was going on.
"Zaid, shfeek?" I asked him. I wanted to shake him to get him out of his trance.
"Umi tuwafat," he simply said. Oh God it was true. My heart skipped a beat.
I brought my hand to my quivering lips as tears streamed down my face. I didn't know his mother, but I couldn't imagine how he must be feeling.
He was still stunned and I was scared it might hit him hard.
"Zaid, shoufni," I commanded him. He lifted his eyes from the floor and onto me.
Then the most heartbreaking thing happened as he began to weep. He sat on the step of the stair and buried his face in his hands as his body trembled while he cried his heart out. I wanted to hug him so bad but I couldn't do anything but sit next to him.
I heard him sob and I couldn't say anything but cry with him.
"Id3i laha," I told him as I wiped my tears. God help him, he looked like he was about to break.
We sat in silence next to each other for a while, he cried while I tried to comfort him, but I knew nothing worked.
"Omniyah," he said as he lifted his head up from the floor. "Riday ilbait, mabeech ita2akhirain," he said as he wiped his tear-stained cheek with his sleeve. I couldn't look at how broken he was; it was too much.
I looked at my watch, it was almost 8 PM.
"Ma warai shay," I said. I hated to think what would happen to him if I'd left.
"Akhaf ummich it7ateech," he said. It killed me when he mentioned my mother so I nodded as I wiped away at my tears with my sleeve.
"Itha tabi ay shay dig 3alay, okay? Ay wagt, ra7 akoun mawjouda," I told him. He nodded as he looked at me.
"Mashkoura," he said.
"3a'6am allah ajirkum Zaid," I said.
"Ajirna oo ajrich," he replied.
I quickly got back to the car as I saw some family members walk into the main entrance of the house. I checked my phone, no missed calls or texts.
By the time I got home Lulu and Sarah were gone.
They texted that they were going to have dinner at Cafe Bazza in case I wanted to join them, only I didn't. It didn't feel right.
I changed into my pajamas, prayed, and snuck inside my bed as I kept my phone next to me in case Zaid needed me.
I checked Twitter and saw some retweets about Zaid's mother from a couple of old schoolmates. I bet Lulu and Sarah knew I was at Zaid's house, but I think they'd let this one slide only maybe not since I didn't tell them, I didn't know whether to trust them or not.
I honestly wasn't in the mood to care right now.
***
Dedicated to Shahad :*
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