More Than You Know (Fajer ◇ 7)

"فوزو وين البسكوت؟"

Ghanima, my cousin yelled from outside the  chalet. 

My cousins and I were having a barbecue, I was the one organizing it. It really helped take my mind off things. I was still healing from Abdullah, it seemed like I would always be healing. 

"كانيي أنا بييبه"

I announced, bringing the tray of homemade cookies for the s'mores. 

I sat down with the girls and grabbed a burger that was freshly grilled. I didn't realize how hungry I was until now. 

"لا تغصين"

Fouz said and I slowed down. She munched on her fries as she scrolled through her phone.

"حدي يوعانة"

I said, dipping my burger into my "special sauce".

She suddenly shot up from her seat and nudged me on my arm to show me something. 

"من صجج؟"

I said grabbing her phone from her hands to look at it. 

It was an Instagram story of Danah, posing with Shoug in New York at Danah’s corner of an exhibition. 

My hands gripped the phone so hard it could've shattered to pieces. 

I handed the phone back to my sister and went on mine to view it. 

I spotted the ring on Shoug's finger. So they were still together...

My face felt hot from rage just looking at her. 

She was one of the main reasons I couldn't be with him. Her threats were not worth the risks.

And Danah? I knew she knew I could see it. She had absolutely no empathy or consideration whatsoever. 

I decided to unfollow Danah from that moment. I wanted nothing to do with what reminded me of the past. 

Nothing at all.